My friend Pam White is an artist and photographer, blogger and insight coach – a Rennaissance woman, very gifted on many levels. Of late, she has also been helping me both with my spiritual work and with my efforts to understand and deal with fear. Yesterday, we were talking about turning the mind away from its ingrained habit of anxiety and worry, and she suggested something for the New Year that I liked – she called it a God Jar. Pam is not very squishy or woo-woo, I do what she says generally. She told me to get a jar and put my wishes and hopes for 2013 into it. Maria loved the idea also and wanted in.

So last night Maria and I had the quietest of New Year’s Eves – we read, discovered solitaire on the Ipad and Iphone (I have been searching hard for good mysteries, just got “Booksellers” by Mark Pryor) and talked. We lit some candles cut up some paper and wrote down our wishes.

Some of mine:

– To write well, take good photos.

– To be a good lover, husband and friend to my wife.

– To not have to worry about money for awhile.

– To find my strength and competence and honor both.

– To see my daughter soon.

– Happiness and success for Maria.

– For Bedlam Farm to be bought by someone who loves it.

– To find my strength.

– Stand in my truth.

– Be a good friend to my friends.

– A compassionate advocate and caretaker for my animals.

– To make my own news.

– To be loving and generous.