It is true that megaesophagus is an up-and-down disease, it is an emotional thing for us and a difficult time for him. Every time we get a clear day or two, it is followed a hard day of uncertainty and disorder.
I wrote the other day that we seemed to have a handle on Gus and his illness, I barely wrote that when Gus began a very difficult two day period of vomiting, spitting up, a re-gurgitation of his food. He seems to me to be losing some weight, and today, I don't believe he was able to digest any of his food, at least not as of 6 p.m.
We are seeing Dr. Fariello again on Thursday, and I'm not sure she has too much more to offer us. We spent a good deal of the day mopping up a lot of Gus's food, but off of the floor and carpet. You know the drill, some of you, a smell mess, all day.
The poor guy.
I believe the next step, if he doesn't improve radically, is to see an internist, a specialist in this disorder, probably in Albany. We would have to have a long talk with Dr. Fariello about that. We have never consulted a veterinary specialist, it is a major stop for us, and it raises a lot of questions about how far we can go and wish to go.
Today, I thought Gus was suffering a bit, he was not himself, and that is understandable given he lost all of the food he had eaten. This could be a one-day phenomenon unrelated to his megaesophagus, or it could be getting worse. He could be sick, or he might have eaten something he shouldn't.
We just don't know. Gus does not seem in any way to be an unhealthy dog, at least not until today, he is lively, playful, affectionate, and energetic. This does not look like a sick dog, yet he is, and that makes this disease especially confusing and emotional. We love Gus and are committed to figuring out just how to live with this disease.
Today, for the first time, he did not seem himself. We'll see about tomorrow, this is a one-day-at-a-time thing.
The next three days might be fine but I see that doesn't really mean anything, as I was told. The disease could return with a vengeance at any time. If Gus is losing weight and suffers from starvation or malnutrition, that is new terrain for us.
But I do not believe he is there yet, and we are not there yet. I don't want to be yo-yo'ing up and down every day, in my head, or on the blog, but I do wish to share the experience with you, as I promised.
We'll figure this out on Thursday, but my guess is we will have to think about some other treatment options. We are prepared to do that.