15 March

Good Reading: The Family Farm And The Crisis Of Culture

by Jon Katz
Family Farms And The Crisis Of Culture

For more than a decade, I have been watching, listening and photographing the collapse of the family farm in my county, one of the most iconic and important institutions in American history and American life.

The abandonment of these farms by government and people who eat is yet another testament to the devastation wrought by the corporate idea, and its de-humanizing rape and destruction of so much of rural America, the very birthplace of the American experience.

All over the country, people are fleeing rural life, as they have for decades, farms are sold to developers, purchased by hobby farmers, or left abandoned for years.Family farmers are vanishing in every part of the country.

After World War II, the returning soldiers fled the hard life of the farm for the cities, and the government decided the family farmer was too small and inefficient for the modern world. There was a great migration from the heartland to the cities and coasts, children left their farmer parents for a different life, and the agribusiness – bigger and bigger – ravaged the small farmer, ruined Main streets all over America, was a horror for farm animals and devastated the land.

This was the origin of much of the bitter divisions we see in our political life today – the rural people who were left behind and suffered for so long, the urban people with money, jobs and hopeful futures. It was a ripe formula for a demagogue.

No individual can really compete with a giant corporation, they are identity and soul killers, the farmers have known this for years, but never quite understood the political implications of who they voted for. They have a self-acknowledged to act in their worst self-interest, and live at the mercy of feckless politicians and regulators, all of whom seem to care nothing about them.

If you wish to understand the increasingly difficult and sometimes hopeless life of the farm, I can recommend two remarable  sources of information and truth. One is the funny,  honest and  sometimes wrenching Bejosh Farm Journal blog, a/k/a My Farmer And Me, written and produced daily by my friends Ed and Carol Gulley, long-time dairy farmers whose milk prices are the same as they were in 1970 while their costs for feed and equipment  skyrocket every year.

There is so much truth and honesty in their writing and photographs.

I am in awe of their hard and relentless work, long hours and perpetual exhaustion. They love their life, and have worked faithfully on their, but their continuous struggle only gets harder. And they are fighting for their very existence.

We are proud to know and call them friends, but they remind me that farming is not a business, but a culture and way of life, the best hope for many animals and the land and for the future of good food and healthy land. Ed and Carol are working on a book about the seasons on their farm, they are having an Open House on Bejosh Farm in June.

Ed has become a successful artist as well, his farm art has sold over the country. You can read about it on their blog. We think of them often, Ed says he and I are “brothers from different mothers,” a high compliment to me.

The second and very powerful and prescient writing about farm life was written by the farmer, author, poet and environmentalist Wendell Berry and published in 1977, it is called “The Unsettling Of America: Culture And Agriculture,” and it is profoundly important book.

It is perhaps even more relevant in our society today than it was when written.

It opened my eyes to the struggle of the family farmer and their abandonment by politicians, economics, agri-corporations and those of us who shop at a supermarket crammed to the rafters with cheap and plentiful food without having a clue as to where it comes from or how it was grown or what it took to get it there.

With the death of the family farm, we all lose so much more than we ever grasped.

The farmer is a metaphor for the proud and free and individual life that America made possible, and their story has become our story, their fate our fate. We are just beginning to wake up to that.

More than nine billion animals life often  horrific lives on corporate industrial farms, the animal rights movement loves to harass and persecute on farmers but seems to never get around to the true horrors of contemporary animal life, far away and out of sight.

This book by Berry is one of the best books I have ever read, and it has shaped much of my writing and thinking, and not just about farmers.

Farmers, artists, filmmakers, machinists, mill workers, writers, union workers, craftsman small business owners, cafe operators and so many workers have seen their eyes upended by the new religion: money and more money, bigness and more bigness, by any means and at all costs.

It is by the measure of culture, rather than economics or technology,” wrote the very prescient Berry, “that we can begin to reckon the nature and the cost of the country-to-city migration that has left our farmlands in the hands of only five per cent of the people.”

A competent farmer is his own boss, lives freely and openly.

He has learned the discipline necessary to go ahead on his own, as required by economic obligation, loyalty to the land, pride in his work, and the meaning of family and community. His work requires intimate knowledge of the land and of animals, of weather and crops. He is utterly dependent on forces he cannot control – drought, storms, insects, floods, disease, sun and wind, government, politicians, regulators and economists, a fickle and unknowing public interested only in lots of cheap food, wherever it comes from, and however it is grown.

His workday requires instinct, long experience, practiced judgment, and hard labor. His days are not measured by other people or by any clock, but how he responds to necessity, interest,  obligation, and debt. By the task and the obligation.

A farmer’s life  depends on endurance and savvy, his farm lasts only as long as it is deemed necessary, or as long as he can work and stand up. He must master the intricate physical, emotional overlapping cycles of the earth – human and mechanical, animal and plant, controllable and uncontrollable – that is the life of the family farm.

The concentration of our farmlands into larger and larger holdings and fewer and fewer hands, writes Berry, brings us a consequent increase of overload, debt and dependence on machines.

A good farmer is a cultural product; not a technician or businessman. He is made by generations of experience and a great love of the land. When the farm dies, we lose land and the rich and meaningful culture of agricultural life. Rural America gave birth to the American experience, now it is mostly a wasteland, the place Main Street goes to die.

The farmer asks “what can I do with what i know?” The corporate farmer asks “how can I grow big enough to borrow money and make a profit?” We sometimes claim to be a Christian Nation, but are, instead a Corporate Nation, that is our common faith, and that is what doomed the family farm and the lives of so many other free men and women.

“It is within unity,” wrote Berry in “The Unsettling Of America,” that we see the hideousness and destructiveness of the fragmentary – the kind of mind, for example, that can introduce a production machine to increase “efficiency” without troubling about its effect on workers, on their product, and on consumers; that can accept and even applaud the “obsolescence” of the small farm and not hesitate over the possible political and cultural effects; that can recommend continuous tillage of huge monocultures, with massive use of chemicals and no animal manure or hummus, and worry not at all about the deterioration.”

I highly recommend this reading, it helps us understand the world we are living in today, and the challenge of empathy and communication.

For the careful and individual and iconic life of the farmer, we have substituted moral ignorance, the legacy of agricultural “progress.”

We are happy to trade the life of the individual for work that we hate for people who care nothing about us. At the core of the small farm I know of is freedom, individuality,  love and humanity. That is what the corporation hates and fears the most.

15 March

Winter Pasture: Spring Meets Winter

by Jon Katz
Winter Pasture: Spring Meets Winter

It’s a strange time, Spring comes next week and I can feel it in the air and in the light. The animals feel it too, they are excited and frisky. It’s hard to capture this when the ground is covered in snow and the temperature stays below freezing.

Sometimes, the light works for me, and I can capture the two seasons sniffing around each other, doing the dance.

15 March

Poem: Where Are We, Sweet Gus?

by Jon Katz
Where Are We, Sweet Gus?

Where are we sweet Gus, I

can’t quite see where we are,

are you frightened,

confused?

Are you hurting, queasy,

in pain?

It can’t be easy to be you,

right now, with your dread

chronic disease,

hanging like a cloud,

over your sun.

I see you throwing back your food all day,

I know you are losing weight

I see you wincing and gulping,

and shaking your head, and blinking,

and shrinking..

They say there is no cure,

you are not absorbing your food,

you cannot digest it.

We are running out of things to try,

it seems we’ve tried everything,

we are looking for hope.

I write books about things like this,

study it, think about it,

but when you’re in it,

it’s so different.

 I am humbled and brought up short,

humility is an unwanted gift sometimes,

i don’t know where we are, and I almost

always know where I am these days.

Every one tells me I love you so much,

maybe so, but I think of you now, not me.

I will be fine, I know what’s happening,

I can take care of myself.

But this isn’t really about me.

I am out of trucks, and hopeful exclamations,

life is life, and we either bow to it,

or fall down in front of it.

I don’t know how to deal with you,

I don’t know where we are,

where you are,

where you need to be,

where I need to be.

I spent the morning with you on my knees,

with paper towels and odor sprays and 

disinfectant, and awful smells and bile.

The dread megaesophagus, 

the call it.

You seem sluggish to me,

then playful, 

then loving,

then tiring, moving inward, trying to shake off

what’s happening inside of you.

I know that look,

I hate that look, it is a dagger in the heart.

Where are we, Gus?, let’s sit down together, 

and have a conversation today,

just between us and Maria,

who loves you so much,

not the world or the doctors, 

or the Internet, your friends

and admirers.

Maybe I can find us,

maybe I can see where we are.

15 March

The Work Never Stops. Finding My Lonely Place

by Jon Katz
The Work Never Stops

I continue to be stunned and fascinated by my own illusions and delusions and fuzzy perspective on life. I’ve  had about 30 years of therapy, analysis, psychiatric treatment, that is more than half of my life. What a mess, to need so much work. What a gift, to learn and understand so much.

Facing up to oneself, is lonely and isolating, one is forever a refugee in the world, perhaps that is one reason I identify with them so much. Not too many people wish to go there.

When I broke down nearly a decade ago, I promised myself I would do whatever I had to do to find love, take responsibility for myself and try to live a life of meaning, one free of fear and confusion.

I swore I would stand in my truth, learn to be authentic and face the worst truths about myself. I know that I have  succeeded to some extent, but I also understand that I have failed in other ways, that I have more work to do, that the work is never done, will never be done. I will never be able to stand in front of anyone, and say “I am done.”

In a sense, I am my own chronic illness, there is no miracle drug for me.

The search for self-awareness and health mirrors the search for spirituality. You are always on the path, you will never get to the end of the journey.

You can face yourself, see yourself. But you can never – and should never – completely escape yourself, or leave yourself behind.. I never feel easy when people suggest I have become a different person. I know that to be a lie.

I hope never to flee from myself and become a different person. I do not believe that is ever possible.

I struggle to not be a disappointment to the people I love.

I work to face the truth about myself, a willingness to hear and accept the worst things about me as well as the best. I hope to never quit on change.  I hope to never blame other people for my troubles. I hope to see and learn from the mistakes that I have made, rather than  deny them.

I hope to fully grasp the awful damage of co-dependency and anxiety, and understand that those things live within me and can be seen and known but never fully conquered.

I trust the fates to guide me and have learned acceptance, to live in hope rather than fear, to strive for good rather thank anger or argument.

I will ever again live a loveless life, I am opening up every day to the gifts life can offer, rather than dwell in the dark forest of fear.

I hope to be my own guru, and never again look for heroes and wizards to rescue me from myself. I am my own savior now, no one will rush in to save me, or to teach me things that I can learn and ought to know. I am fully engaged in a loving relationship, I will always  be alone in so many important ways.

I think the point is really that this my life, and my life is precious, and I am responsible for it. I no longer see a therapist, I no longer take medications for the mind that is my own, or need them. I sleep on my own, seek perspective. I don’t need pills to think. Or to stop thinking.

I find solitude every day and give thanks for it.

It is in solitude that this inner freedom can grow.  A life without a lonely place is a barren life, and a destructive place. When we cling to our own egos and actions as our only way of self-identification, we become anxious and possessive and defensive and look for enemies to be blamed and for people to push away. We cannot find friends with whom we can share the gifts of life.

I know that is a struggle for me.

In solitude, we unmask the delusions about ourselves, we face the truth. We are not what we can conquer, dominate or persuade. In solitude I can grow old freely without wondering how useful I might be to the world.

Writes Henry J.M. Nouwen: “To the degree that we have lost our dependencies on this world – father, mother, children, career, success, money – we can form a community of faith in which there is little to defend, but much to share. Because as a community of faith, we take the world seriously, but never too seriously.”

Amen.

15 March

The Amazing Shrinking RISSE Amazon Wish List

by Jon Katz
The Amazing Shrinking RISSE Amazon Wish List

Thanks to you and the good in  your hearts, this RISSE classroom is changing by the day. Everything that these children are painting and writing and studying – pencils, paint, markers,, books, bins,  came from your contributions to the wish list, I thank Cassidy and Cheryl at RISSE for keeping up with us, they are tired but happy.

Your new lamps and carpets for the floors are on the way. The RISSE refugee and immigrant after school program is located in several drafty rooms on the top floor of a Methodist Church in Albany, N.Y. Federal aid for refugees and immigrants – including tuition add for learning classes – is being slashed or eliminated.

RISSE can’t fund the improvements they so urgently need, so our help is critical and valuable and immediate. These kids are just drinking up the learning software and painting kits and puzzles and wall boards and lights, and on the way, some carpets. Your clothing donations continue to pour in, I see all these warm and colorful sweaters and jackets on these kids, they were not on them before.

I call it the Amazing Shrinking RISSE Amazon Wish List, it is down to three items again, a Rubbermaid 2-gallon Victory Jug for $21, and some poster-hanging and some poster hanging strips – they only need 3 more – for $5.67.

I bought a game and one of the poster strips. The $522 outdoor trash can for the playground is still there, now the longest laughing wish list item, an orphan. I told them that one might take awhile, unless some wealthy people come across the blog. You never know, I told Cassidy and Cheryl I suspect it will be there a long time, a fixed point in a shrinking list.

Cassidy is on her toes, I imagine the list will grow again shortly. Some of the household items are going to families, the rest to the school. I’ll  go back next week and see what has changed. I’m glad the carpets are coming, they will make a huge difference. RISSE helps 200 refugee and immigrant children and more than 1,000 adults.

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