13 October

Podcast: Maria And The Meaning Of Belly Dancing

by Jon Katz

This podcast is about Maria and bellydancing and the impact it has had on her life and our relationship.

Maria has never joined anything in her life.

Two years ago, she joined a belly dancing group in Bennington, and this choice has been transformative for her, radically changing her ideas about her body, her self-esteem,  friendship her confidence and willingness to learn.

Here, she found the teachers everybody should have – strong women who are honest, empathetic and challenging.

When I first saw her dance, I told her “this is the real you coming to life, coming out.” It was even more significant than I realized. This was not just something she was learning, it is something that she already is, and that wants to come out of hiding.

Sometimes, to grow and evolve, you just have to take the plunge, to embrace the leap of faith. And leap.

In our podcast, we talk about what belly dancing means to her, and also what it has taught me. We also talk about whether or not we really want to get the two new wool sheep we’ve been offered for free.

6 December

Bedlam Notes: 12/6/2018. Dancing, Memories

by Jon Katz

I was surprised to get this note from Julie Bosworth, somewhere in France this morning:

Jon, It was a thrill and a privilege to have your show live-streaming in my cottage in (very) rural Brittany, France. As an American expat originally from NJ and longtime Jon Katz devotee/blog supporter it was a joy to listen. Looking forward with eagerness to next week’s broadcast!

Thanks Julie, it was a thrill to get this message. And a privilege.

My young radio broadcast “Talking To Animals,” on every Wednesday from one to three from WBTNAM1370, is using technology (and my precious blog) to reach out far beyond our rural borders. So far we’ve had calls from Canada, Italy, Paris, Trieste, Italy, California, Vermont, New York, Pennsylvania, Michigan, New Mexico, Massachusetts, Virginia, Maryland and Florida.

New technology makes almost everyone – and every radio station – global. You can catch the show livestreamed here, hear it on the free Simple Radio app almost anywhere in the world, call me live on 866 406-9286, or e-mail me your questions: [email protected]. The show is friendly, hopefully thoughtful and useful.

Next show is next Wednesday, December 12, one to three p.m.

Red is still recovering from his paralysis and possible spinal fracture, the ramp we ordered for him to use to get into the car arrived today, he freaked when he saw it. We’ll get there. He’s eating and moving cautiously. Acupuncture next week.

He’s getting lots of rest, love and attention.

Belly Dancing, The Hafla

In two weeks, I will get to see Maria Belly Dance for the first time. She will dance at a Hafla, a showing for the Belly Dancers and their families at Christmas. It is not open to the public.

Maria wrote a wonderful piece about what this group has meant to her, how she is working to overcome her panic at performing, and how the experience so closely echoes issues in her early life.

It’s a compelling and powerful piece.

Belly Dancing is changing her life.

This is turning out, I think, to be an important milestone in Maria’s journey. I’ll let her tell it. I’m excited about it.  Belly Dancing is not about technique or even performance.

It’s about feeling. and attitude. Maria is rich with both.

Speaking of compelling pieces, our friend Susan Popper, who has struggled with obesity and hidden herself from much of the world for much of her life, wrote a wonderful piece about her liberation, her brave efforts to meet the planet which she loves on. It’s on her blog Just Susan.

I recommend it to anyone who has been crippled by fear, shame or anger.

Retreat

One week from today, I’ll begin a three-day retreat, to meditate, rest, gather my thoughts and finish the three remaining chapters on my forthcoming book about Bud and Gus.

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Truck Passage

I got a message from a woman driving a tractor-trailer truck through the Northeast, she said she was planning to drop by the farm in a couple of hours and meet Simon, she said I seemed so friendly on the blog that she knew it would be okay to just stop by and park the truck and spend some time on the farm between jobs.

I told her I was flattered, but that Simon was dead, the farm is not open to visitors apart from the Open Houses, Maria and I both work, and many people thought I was far from friendly.

Have a good trip, though. I did not hear back.

I felt badly for a few minutes, I wondered why I wasn’t the kind of person who could just open up and let the world in. What would it really cost me? But I’m afraid I just can’t.

At some point in life, you just have to accept who you are.

I also was troubled a bit by the assumptions in her letter. It’s one thing to ask if a visit would be welcome, another to say she was on her way with a tractor-trailer to spend some time with me on the farm hoping to see a donkey who was now dead. It wasn’t a good vibe.

I decided it wasn’t flattering, but I was nice and polite.

I do remember a morning in Hebron when a yellow school bus pulled into the driveway and disgorged 45 Middle-School children who were heading for a local zoo but found it was closed when they arrived. The teachers, somewhat desperate, thought of my farm and  introduced themselves as dog lovers and said they knew I wouldn’t mind.

The kids were charging towards the gate as I stood open-mouthed and somewhat paralyzed. The donkeys were looking anything but welcome as these screaming kids charged towards them. I had Carol the ill-tempered donkey then, and she didn’t like me, let alone strangers. And her ears were back.

I got to the gate in time. I gave a ten minute speech, taught the kids to stick carrots through the fence and  said goodbye.

There was also the stalker who came into my house while I was up in the pasture and tried to take one of my dog Orson out with her for a ride or for good. Rose, bless her, sounded the alarm up on the hill and went charging down. The stalker fled.

The police caught her – she didn’t get the dog, she would have regretted Orson – with a notebook full of hundreds of photographs of me going back a few years.

She was wanted for something else, it turned out, she was sent off to an institution. She called me from time to time for  several years from a correctional facility, but I haven’t heard from her since. And I’m not even famous.

My life is kind of interesting, and I appreciate that.

Bedlam Farm