16 February

A Special Mansion Meditation Class: “Jon, Isn’t Art Just Like Meditation…?” Yes. (We Urgently Need Colored Art Markers)

by Jon Katz

I was reading an essay about Meaningful Thinking and living in the moment. One of the class members raised her hand and asked me: “but isn’t meditation just like making art?” one of them asked me, as heads around the table nodded up and down.

“It has the same calming effect on us,” another said.

Yes, I said a great observation. There is a similarity.

This was so true I insisted that we talk about it. And we did.

( Need Help! The Mansion aides say the residents always draw and burn through art markers. I’ve been buying them as fast they run out, but I’m getting low on Mansion Fund money, as usual, and I’m asking for help in getting a lot of art coloring markers to the Activities room; the residents are excited about their art and. and drawing with those markers day and night. “We can’t keep them fast enough, ” says Paryese, the Activities Director.  Please consider sending some markers to the Mansion, address  Paryese Bates Becker, The Mansion, 11 S. Union Street, Cambridge, N.Y., 12816. Thank you. If you don’t care to purchase them online, you can send a check to me, Jon Katz, Mansion Fund, P.O. Box 205, Cambridge, N.Y., 12816. And thanks.)

We had a great talk about how living in the low eliminates all kinds of anger and anxiety. You don’t get ahead, you don’t look bad, you focus on where you are at the moment. It’s easy to underestimate the intelligence of people in assisted care. They don’t often get a chance to stretch their minds. Art activities seem to be doing it.

The residents got the idea; we talked about it to lunch. We also practiced deep breathing, which the residents said made a huge difference. The class is working out beautifully; I can’t wait to get there on Fridays and share and teach what I am learning.

I have learned a lot from the residents; hopefully, they will learn some things from me. They insist that they are. We’ve come a long way together in the class; we’re still in progress.

Meditation, I said, brings the body into the work. “When body and mind are together,” writes Thich Nhat Hanh, “you are fully president. You are fully alive, and you can touch the wonders of life that are available in the here and the now.”

Sharon, a Mansion resident, has been an influential class member. She is a published poet and brings me a poem almost weekly if she’s up to it. Sharon is sick and has been in the hospital often. She’s never quit writing her poems.

She’s a valued friend.

I love the meditation class; it means the world to me, and I  hope it is helpful to them. The love at the table is overwhelming.

Here is the one she brought me today. I look forward to her poems; there is so much life in them:

“My Dear Love,

My love begins and ends with you. I can’t imagine my life without you,

So close, but so far away!

I’ve known you for over 40 years, working towards fifty.

Someday, our life will be through, but I’ll be happy because I will hopefully be with you.

The first time I heard you laugh or saw your smile, I knew it was edited.

I still feel you as much as I did then.

Some people are just meant to be!

  • Sharon Denny.

Below, Jane is using one of the markers.

6 December

Zip: Standing Up To Dogs, Fate At Rest, Bird Bath Covered In Ice, Sheep In The Snow

by Jon Katz

This morning, Fate and Zip had another standoff. Her tail was up and quivering, which I gathered was a sign that the cat was happy or having fun. Zip keeps an eye on the dogs but doesn’t run from them or back off.

I know Zinnia is playing with her; Fate seems to think he’s a sheep, giving him the herding stance that the sheep and Zip all ignore. Watching Zip as his confidence and willfulness emerge over time is fun.

And I’m learning that Zip has a playful street. He and the dogs are working it out. I know Zinnia well, and when she rushes out to greet him, as she does with Bud, she wants to play.

Zip and I had two meetings today, the first in the snow (he came running out of the barn to greet me) and then this afternoon. I look forward to seeing him; I had a great photo lesson with Andrew this morning and am working on some of the things he taught me this afternoon.

Maria is belly dancing; I’ll read and work while she’s gone. I miss her, but I also enjoy the solitude and quiet. The good thing about missing someone is the joy of seeing them come home. Tomorrow, doctors all morning.

 

Fate at rest, she reminds me of a fawn sleeping with their skinny legs sticking out.

Snow is beautiful, especially in a gray sky.

 

 

2 December

Creative Portrait. Iam McRae Read His Newest Poem. His Face Tells The Story of A Poet. Eight Photos Captured The Reading And The Poet’s Emotions

by Jon Katz

Poetry is difficult to define, and I won’t try. Every poem is different; every poet is different from every other.

As an art, it can effectively invoke a range of emotions in the reader and the poet. The poets I know are intense and often emotional about their work. They live in their heads.

The meaning of a poem is sometimes only apparent to the poets themselves. Poet is an interior art form; it’s written usually by the poet for him or herself. Poets are notorious for living in poetry and working outside of the mainstream.

Poetry can be presented in several forms— from traditional rhymed poems such as sonnets to contemporary free verse.

Poetry, wrote Robert Frost, who should know, “is the deification of reality. Poetry is plucking at the heartstrings and making music with them. The crown of literature is poetry. Reality only reveals itself when a ray of poetry illuminates it.”

For several years, it has been my privilege to watch our young friend (and sheep shearer) Ian McRae struggle and work hard to understand the poetry that was turning his soul and mind upside down. It was chewing him up inside, and he needed to come out. He has, and it shows.

When we met, he refused to identify himself as a poet. He no longer feels the need to do that.

Last night, he came to dinner and read a new poem that was a giant leap forward to the people present who were listening.

He is a natural poet, and his work speaks to that. Other people are noticing it. Ian is one of those creatives who will hang on until he gets it right. What a gift to see that happening. He even looks like a poet now; it’s all over his face.

This has liberated him in many ways. He often writes, has found a poetry group to join, and is taking his first college class in poetry and creative writing.

I admire Ian, not really as a mentor but as a friend. I look forward to his visits and enjoy hearing his poems and watching his emotions as he reads them. I decided to try to capture this in pictures.

Ian has joined the small and committed community of young poets. He is, along with a local poet who is a friend, a regular Friday dinner partner.

Last night, I gave him three new poetry books and some shaving equipment. He uses his blade for so long that he sometimes cuts himself. We can fix that.

Poetry is an emotional thing for Ian, and when he reads a new poem, as he often does when he comes to dinner, his face shows the emotion of a poet and the intensity of poetry. I’m not a poet, but I know a few poets who are relaxed when reading their work. I love watching his face while he reads.

I took a bunch of pictures while Ian read his new work last night, and I think they form a compelling portrait of the intensity of poetry and the poet.

Ian is the real deal, and it is wonderful for him to have the courage to put his work out there and work hard to improve it and learn.

I admire him and am proud to call him a friend.

Here are six portraits of Ian reading a poem in our living room Friday night. Surprisingly, they were taken by my new macro camera in poor light.

They tell his story in images better than I could do in words. It’s also a new kind of portrait for me, and I like it. Ian feels the music in his poetry, and poetry and music are cousins to me.

 

Poetry and beauty are always making peace. When you read something beautiful, you find coexistence; it breaks walls down.” —Mahmoud Darwish.

 

 

“I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.”
― Pablo Neruda.
A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness.”
― Robert Frost.
If you are a dreamer, come in
If you are a dreamer, a wisher, a liar
A hope,r a pray-er, a magic-bean-buyer
If you are a pretender com, sit by my fire
For we have some flax-golden tales to spin
Come in!
Come in!”
― Shel Silverstein

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.”
― Robert Frost

What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the print I have read.”
― Walt Whitman

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile, the world goes on.
Meanwhile, the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile, the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting –
over and over, announcing your place
in the family of things.”
― Mary Oliver

 

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.”
― T.S. Eliot.

I loved seeing the range of emotions in Ian’s face as he read his poems. They are, to me, beautiful flowers in a different form.

16 November

Bedlam Farm Book Alert: It’s New Mystery Time, I’ve Ordered Five For The Holidays. Three Are Here, Two Are Coming

by Jon Katz

I’ve found that the Christmas season is the best time for mysteries, and the mystery book world appears to be booming. It’s the best year for new mystery writers that I can recall.  I’ve found that this genre is being overtaken by young female writers from all over the country and the world. They often have a new understanding of the genre, which has gotten a little tired – body found, grumpy widower detective with a mean boss solves it at the last minute.

The new generation of writers puts crime and death.

I usually scan mysteries at this time of year, and I’ve bound about a dozen that look exciting and promising; all but one are by female writers. I find that they are re-imagining the structure and range of the mysteries. It’s not just a bloody murder and a complex and often troubled  DCI; the female point of view is very different than the male point of view in life and in mysteries.

I’ve ordered five mysteries to get me through the Christmas system; I feel I should be able to read a mystery in two days, sometimes less. Reading a mystery was often the way I got to go to sleep. I find the mysteries I read more nuanced, emotional, and very different.

I’ll mention three today, and two more are coming tomorrow, and I’ll mention them then. The first one I got was Murder By Degrees, by Ritu Mukerji, born in Kolkata, India, and now lives in San Francisco. I am a third into the book and am liking it very much.

The hero is not a cop but a pioneer female doctor. The book takes place in 1857. Lydia Weston is a teacher and co-founder of the Women’s Medical College of Pennsylvania, a pioneer in medical teaching at a time when male doctors and male-run medical schools fought aggressively to keep women out of medicine. Their argument was that women are too sensitive and fragile to operate on human beings. The book captures the feel of the women’s revolution, just beginning to store in America. The doctor is honest, challenging, and compassionate, the perfect doctor and professor.

Dr. Weston will have none of male patronization and bigotry.

One of her patients, a young service worker in a wealthy home named Anna, is found drowned in a river. It looks like suicide, but Dr. Weston thinks it is much more than that, and she decides to investigate.

She makes for a strong and admirable doctor who is both fearless and skilled. So far, it’s a terrific book; I’m completely hooked. She even connects with that rarest of police inspectors, a man who is honest and unafraid to deal with and listen to women. Mukerji’s background about life in post-revolutionary Philadelphia and the early days of medicine is fascinating.

Reading the book, I felt this is a good one for granddaughters and daughters; Lydia is a great role model for young women, and the book is not creepy or gory.

The other two books I’ve ordered are Blood Sisters by Vanessa Lillie and Glory Be by Danielle Arceneaux. Arceneaux’s story takes place in a Louisiana bayou and introduces Inspector Glory Broussard, our funny and foul-mouthed investigator/ hero. I’ll write more about these two when I read them, but I’m excited about them all, And I’ll read them all over the holidays.

Blood Sisters is about a very different kind of mystery. A Cherokee archeologist for the Bureau of Indian Affairs in Rhode Island is sent to rural Oklahoma to investigate the disappearance of two women, one of them her sister. She has herself suffered violence that she barely escaped in her Oklahoma hometown. She promised herself she’d never go back, but the search for his sister has brought her back.

It’s fascinating that women have such a creative and original grip on the mystery genre; I love almost every book I read.

Two other books I’ve ordered: The Body By the Sea, by Jean-Luc Bannalec, a Brittany Mystery, and The Benevolent Society of Ill-Mannered Ladies (Book One of a new series.) by Alison Goodman. A secret women’s society is dedicated to helping abused or mistreated women.

From one early review of The Benevolent Society Of I’ll Mannered Ladies: “Fresh and fearless, Alison Goodman’s exquisitely written, impeccably researched genre-blending novel shines a light into the darkest corners of Regency England. The Benevolent Society of Ill-Mannered Ladies is part heart-racing adventure, gothic mystery, tantalizing romance, and wholly wonderful.” 

The Body Of The Sea is the eighth book in the Commissaire Dupin mystery series.

I’m in.

 

18 October

This One’s For You, Esther, And Thanks. Our Bossy And Photogenic Cat Says Hello. The Black Dog Inside Is Getting Bored…

by Jon Katz

I’ve bitched and squawked an excellent deal about the nasty trolls and broken humans who stalk people online, but I must be honest. Some of the nicest people in the world have been following Maria and me and our blogs for a long time now, and they support us regularly and send us the most beautiful and thoughtful messages and sometimes, donations.

One this morning that came to our P.O. Box 205 was from Esther Dow of New Hampshire. It was a beautiful card with a gorgeous painting of a Raven,  a timely gift for us.  She is one of our favorite people.

And she sent a sweet note: “I am enclosing donations for your blogs. I very much enjoy reading them every day. The photos of the animals are my favorites,  especially Zip. He is becoming a pretty photographic cat. I hope you both stay well and that the remainder of the year stays peaceful.”

Best wishes, Esther…” You are a warrior for hope and kindness. Zip has become a Bedlam Farm Rock Star.

Thanks, Esther; people like you remind us repeatedly what it means to be human. The Zip photo is for you.

My Black Dog is getting bored, I think. I’ve invited him to leave and sit with another poor soul. Yesterday struck me for several reasons, but I have learned to accept adversity and see it as a gift that challenges me to be stronger and better. Fear and depression are not material things; they are geographic spaces to cross.

I accept them but don’t allow them to get too comfortable. They just look for another victim if I don’t suffer too much. There are many.

Today, I think the Black Dog is tired of hanging around here.

We are, in truth, a happy, dynamic place of good work, good people, and our own Peaceable Kingdom. It is a good place, but not suitable for an extended stay from the Black Dog. I suggested he return to his Hellmouth. It will take a day or two, but I can see the light. This is not the right place for a Black Dog.

I once had the most savage panic attacks, and yesterday reminded me of them, although it was as bad as before. This morning, I got this lovely note from Esther Dow. That was a light. Maria urged me to take it easy this morning, so I did. I meditated, rested, and read.

I have to thank Congress for a rare bit of sunshine. Even the lost souls of the Republican Congress couldn’t stomach making Mr. Jordan the Speaker Of The House and second in line to the Presidency.

Good things are about to happen; you heard it here first. Stay tuned.

Bedlam Farm