I love Gus’s donkey ride, we haven’t been able to do that since we got his muzzle, which frightens the donkeys and causes him to be a bit off-balance. This was Gus’s high water mark as a farm dog, and kids send me letters all the time begging for him to get up there again. Not at the moment.
Gus on the donkey defined him for a while, and brought him some national attention. Every photo of him on a donkey went viral. It was a delightful sight, an affirmation of our wish for him to be a farm dog.
Maria and I took vet to the Gus and today and we had a good, thorough and honest talk with her about his megaesophagus and what we can expect in the future,, we went over the history of Gus’s experience with the disease, what worked, what didn’t, we checked over his weight, discussed how it impacted on our lives and how we felt about it.
We spent a long time discussing Gus’s suffering and digestive troubles.
Dr Fariello laid out all of the options available to her now, and we all spoke openly and honestly about how we felt. I think those conversations need to be private.
As is obvious, we talked the possibility of euthanizing Gus and also discussed what might be worth trying for a while longer. It is such a gift to have a vet we can talk with so openly. I will be honest with you, as I strive to be, Maria and I said we wanted to think about things and talk about them privately.
There is a time to share things and a time to go inward and look for clarity, and in privacy. So I won’t write about Gus further or read messages about him until we get clear on what we are doing.
Maria and I always have this agreement that we both have to be in the same place when we make important decisions, each of us has veto power at anytime over any decision. We both have different was of deciding things, but we always get to a place where both of us are in agreement.
Perhaps I am just learning how to do it, but Maria and I talk very easily and openly with one another, with respect and understanding. We always get where we need to go.
When we do something it is because we have talked about it, thought about it, argued about it, and come to the same place.
If we don’t, then there is no decision. So I’ll be writing on the blog this weekend as usual, but not writing about Gus for a while. I’m not being coy, but sometimes I just have to go inward, to the center, and listen to myself and Maria. And sometimes, I just need some space to think. So does she.
We have a good and full weekend planned, my writing class in the morning, friends visiting Saturday and Sunday, maybe a movie sandwiched in between, new pasture boots for Maria.
I am in close contact with Robin Gibbons, Gus’s breeder and her son Bryan, they are good and valued friends and we share all of the news of Gus’s condition with them. Bryan loved Gus when he was a new puppy, they are pals still. They are wonderful people, and we value knowing them, we consider them family. Gus’s illness was not a breeding issue in any way.
So, I’ll be in touch. If and when there is some news, I will share it as soon as seems right. I believe very strongly that everything is a gift, I respect life and accept it. That is my faith, and is what sustains me.