June 24, 2010 – On the hero’s journey, there are always demons at the gate – fear, money, health, people who line up to tell you why you can’t do what you want to do, or be what you want to be. I am working to build a spiritual center. This is not necessarily centered on a God, or the God that so many people love to talk about. My notion of a a spiritual center is closer to this – find and give love, learn to be calm, do not live from a place of fear, tell your story in every way you can. Sometimes, especially later, I do hear God whispering to me. Usually around color and light.

Sometimes, I am just learning to know myself. Not the crazy and fearful person who ran around for so many years hiding from his life, but a different person – calmer, more loving and open. I find myself in the presence of love. In the company of good and gentle men. In the light of my work. After all this, the first stirrings of a truly spiritual life. It will be hard work, and the demons at the gate are waiting for me. I will greet them,thank them for the presence, and get on with my life.