At my Tarot Card Reading yesterday in Brattleboro, Patti Newton showed me the five elements of life, and I saw in them my choices and challenges, my Dilemma of the Lion, the elements of my life, and its transition from one way of thinking to another. Is this not the path to enlightenment? To inner peace? To a spiritual life? To awakening? I understand now that I am separating myself for good from the way most people think, from what the news says, what political leaders say, what doctors say. I am comfortable with that, or almost. It is where I belong, and I know that. The certainty comes from very deep within.
From Irritability and Rage to Joy.
From Anxiety to Love.
From Grief, Regret and Lament to Clear Thinking, A Life with Understanding and Acceptance, Not Drama.
From Fear to Inner Strength.
From Anger to Wisdom.
Yesterday, someone wrote me that they did not understand why worry is not love. Her father is dying of cancer, and should she not worry? I thought it is not for me to tell her how to think and whether to worry or not. That is up to her. My father is gone also, and my mother, too, and many friends and loved ones, including children. And speaking only for myself, worry never did any of them any good, or slowed their departure for a second. Or brought them back.
I still feel the grief of their loss sometimes, but this is what binds us, as it is one of the very few experiences we all share. And when I grieve, I stop and realize that every person reading this, reading my books, driving past me, that I see on the street, has lost a mother, or a father, or a dog, or a friend, or a child or loved one. This experience is not mine alone. Grieving and drama will not be my life. This is where we connect as human beings. And I give thanks for the presence of these people in my life, even if they are gone. That acceptance is what I mean by clear thinking for me.
And is this an important part of the message. We are all going to deal with life, one way or the other, again and again, and this can be very sad, but it is also the truth and reality of life, and I am coming to see and accept that.
The story of the Lion and the Lamb.