Defining God is almost impossible. Many feel that our purpose is to become one with God. When you describe feeling you hear him, that implies an oneness. Your work for the manner and the refugees also seems like God’s work. You are living a spiritual life AND a God-filled life!

–Barbara Neely, friend and blog reader.

Lovely thought, Barbara, thanks. The idea of oneness makes sense to me.

I’m not smart enough or wise enough to figure this God thing out. It’s above my pay grade. I love the idea of God but have never found one I can worship. Perhaps that’s the issue for me; I think what I call God is living inside me, not outside, as Barbara suggests. There is an oneness inside of me; I felt it today.

Today was the first day since my accident that I took the Leica out and took some lovely flower art photos. Unfortunately, the trek outside gave me just enough energy to make dinner – wheat flour pasta, crispy kale, plant best sausage. I’m looking forward to posting my Zip flower journal Thursday morning – I finally got some nice pictures from the little bugger, who rarely stands still. I’ll put it up in the morning with the flower art.

It was beautiful to be outside with the Leica again. I’ve upgraded my photography with the iPhone 15 Pro Max. But the Leica is unique- it’s a heavy camera, and I was too unsteady to trust carrying it around outside. My hands were too shaky, and my feet too unstable. I would never forgive myself if I fell and broke the Leica. I would not be able to replace it.

I had no trouble this afternoon—many firsts. Tomorrow morning, a celebration. I’ve been saving the Zip photos all week, and I took the flower art photos just a few hours ago.

This will enable me for my art to improve. I also went to see Nancy Burns, our chiropractor, in Vermont. She said the muscles in my back were unbelievably tight, and she banged, blasted, and rolled my back into better shape. Going to bed tonight will be a big test, but she helped me immensely.

The brain bleed was the most severe injury of my life so far; I’ve been fortunate. I was told by a doctor today that I will feel the effects of the concussion for weeks and months, but I am healing and getting stronger. The two ambulance rides were as exciting as they were uncomfortable.

I was in very little pain today, a first for this October. I will read now for as long as possible; I doubt I will be awake this evening. The meal was great, but it did wear me down. I will see you in the morning with some exceptional photos. Sleep well,  be at peace.

 

These two photos are of different parts of the St. Joseph statute in our yard. I got this statue when I moved upstate, first the body, then the torso. We’ve never found the head. We’ve decided it’s a St. Joseph statue, and lately, I’ve found myself sitting out there and meditating with him. The top photo is of the lilies he carried with him; the hand strikes me as iconic and beautiful. See you in the morning.

It was a good but tiring day. Every day is getting better. Tomorrow, I go to the dentist for a routine cleaning (I hope). In November, I got the implant finished in my lower jaw. I’m beginning to feel human again.