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26 August 2016

The Fragility Of Plans, The Annals Of Waiting

By: Jon Katz
The Fragility Of Plans

The Fragility Of Plans: Red and Fate, Summer of 2015

The gods do not care much for human plans, one of life's lessons is to understand that plans are hopes, not always realities. The hospital my daughter Emma planned to go to for the birth of her first child was overwhelmed with emergency cases and premature births over the weekend, there were no beds or doctors or mid-wives around, rooms were not available, staff was scrambling.

Emma had to wait. And wait. And she is still waiting.

It took a day for things to settle and she went into labor sometime late Saturday afternoon. That's about all I feel comfortable saying – this is her life, not mine.

Paula, Emma's mother, stayed in touch with me and is standing by to help out.

I hope that Emma is comfortable and that things move quickly and safely for her and her daughter. I do feel a bit helpless, even disoriented,  but there is nothing for me to do, not from this distance. I am also excited for Emma for all of us.

Emma and Jay are strong and dedicated to one another, and Paula and Emma are close and trusting of one another.  The doctors and midwife are experienced and competent.

She is in good hands, surrounded by love and support.

I'm glad I've been writing about this and touched and fascinated by the discussion the posts have generated.

Very helpful for me to read through them. One caught my eye, it was written by Ronna Fiori and posted on my Facebook Page. I was struggling with some of the many heartwarming posts telling me this would be something that would instantly transform my life into almost unfathomable joy and love.

I am happy so many grandparents have found that, that scenario didn't quite feel like me. That may be because I am anticipating it, not living it. And I tend to overthink some things, and underthink others.

Ronna offered a perspective that rang true to me and my circumstances:

"It may take huge amounts of strength and tenacity and forbearance for you to maintain a position in your grandchild's life. Geography and history can be big obstacles to overcome (speaking from my own experience). I wish you all the best."

That is a tempered but authentic analysis.

I think it will take huge amounts of strength and tenacity and patience for me to establish a loving position in my granddaughter's life, I think Riona is correct. We are all different, our circumstances are different.  Emma and I live hours apart and live very different lives, both of them full and sometimes overwhelming.

I don't take any of this for granted, or assume all the obstacles will be washed away in a torrent of unconditional love. That has never been my experience in life. It will take a lot of work.

And my granddaughter will have as much to say about it as I do, and so she should. I think the good news is that I am strong and tenacious, I asked Maria to marry me every day for more than a year, and neither of us was yet officially divorced.

I left a note on her car windshield, it said "I'll wait, no obligations."

She says she ate it.

So I'll keep the phone handy and send good vibes down to New York City.

 

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Round Bale, Bedlam Farm

By: Jon Katz
Round Bale, Bedlam Farm

Round Bale, Bedlam Farm

Across the road from the farmhouse, the pasture has been cut and baled, round bales criss-cross the meadow waiting to be picked up. In the background, Maria's studio, partially hidden behind the trees, and the old farmhouse, finally stripped of it's ungainly shutters. Farmhouses did not have shutters in the early 1800's, when ours was built.

In a sense, round bales are the sculptures of the farms, they have a character and timelessness to them that marks the passage of another season, another year.

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Old Barn, Route 68

By: Jon Katz
Old Barn, Route 68

Old Barn, Route 68

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Casey, Son Of Izzy

By: Jon Katz
Casey, Son Of Izzy

Casey, Son Of Izzy

My chiropractor is named Dr. Nancy Burns and she is a gifted and much loved healer. Going to see her is the very antithesis of going to see a typical physician in the modern health care system. Her patients love her and hug her, she makes time for each of us and is easy to talk to and helpful. She listens. And she heals.

She could well be a role model for how modern health care ought to work, but I won't hold my breath.

She has a dog named Casey, and I was startled to learn when I first came that he is one of the many sons of Izzy,  my first hospice dog and the dog who chased sunsets with me when I first became a photographer. Casey is a sweet soul like Izzy was he is struggling with a bad leg.

Izzy was a remarkable creature, and I meet of lot of his offspring as I move around town. He was a lover boy who often got out of his holding pen. He was a much leaner dog than Casey, but he had the same eyes.

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Passage To India: “You Will See A Child…Give Him A Voice.”

By: Jon Katz
New Quilt: http://www.fullmoonfiberart.com

New Quilt, $400: http://www.fullmoonfiberart.com

Beautiful voices coming into Post Office Box 205, Cambridge, N.Y., 12818 in support of Maria's journey to India in February of 2017 to teach victims of sex trafficking how to make potholders and support themselves. You can contribute to that journey if you wish by sending a donation to the post office box or by visiting her indiegogo.com project has surpassed $4,000.

At this point, all new donations will go to help the women in Calcultta and their children.

"Maria," wrote Wanda Phinney from Massachusetts, "you will see a child, you will know, who longs for a box of colored pencils and a pad of paper to speak. Please use this money to give that child a voice. I wish I could send more." She sent a generous  $25 for the pencils and paper.

Susan Gabel sent a well-worn $10 bill from a small town in Missouri, with this message: "Thank you for all you do. You do it for all of us that can't. So many hearts go with you. Have a wonderful trip! Thank you, Susan.

From Northern California, a $20 check and a message from Susan Morasca: "Dear Maria, To know that you will be able to empower the women in India with your special gift is a dream come true. Truly life changing for all of you. I can't think of a more perfect ambassador to share the creative spark! Fond wishes to you, you will make a life changing difference in so many lives."

(Maria finished the above quilt this morning, and as is my custom, when permitted, I took a photo of the new work. It is a quilt, as yet unnamed, it will cost $400 plus shipping. You can follow the details on Maria's website.

 

 

 

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