Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

20 May

Flower Art. Tonight We Honor The Buttercup, The Columbine, Anemone, And The Salvia. A Wild And Beautiful Ride, Sorry Dad.

by Jon Katz

I sometimes wonder what my father would make of my new turn as a flower photographer and writer. I doubt he would like it. He often told me I was failing to live up to my potential and lacked the character to play baseball or stop wetting my bed.

He was a basketball star in his youth and an athlete throughout his life; he was absolutely flabbergasted when I was hired to edit a newspaper or produce a national TV News show.

I always wanted to write a novel about a father who had a son he didn’t like and who didn’t like him. Don’t get me wrong. He was a good person, kind, honest, and compassionate, just not to me and my sister. I bear no grudges. He did his best and overcame many obstacles that would have destroyed other people.

But flower photography? No chance.

I’m proud of this batch of flowers. I was out in the sun for much of the day, and it was too hot, but I was happy with the results. Sorry, Dad. These are for you. I’m taking time to notice and honor the humble Buttercups, bright yellow wildlife flowers I’m finally seeing. I hope you enjoy them. With these photos, I am finally getting closer to living up to my potential. It’s a mix.

The Buttercups are radiant behind the sun. I’ve walked by these wildflowers all my life but have never seen them.

 

I love to mix the flowers up.

I’ve never paid attention to the wildflower Buttercups before. I don’t make that mistake again.

The special beauty of the Columbine

 

Anemones

 

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I’d like to thank the many flower and garden lovers who have read my blog in recent years. I appreciate their patience with me, as I misspell many of the flowers and don’t know the names of many others. These people are patient with me, always helping to help and guide me, never making me feel stupid and small. Thanks for that; I really appreciate it.

20 May

Chronicles Of Zip, Monday, May 20, 2024. Something That Slows Him Down: Heat

by Jon Katz

I’ve discovered the one thing that slows Zip down—heat. Today, the temperatures went up into the 80s, and Zip hung out for a while at the bottom of the barn door, where he could doze and spot anything moving, which caused him to shoot out in a hurry.

When I came out to take some flower photos and look at the colors of the flowers growing in my bed, Zip appeared and hopped onto the table next to me. Like my dogs, he learned quickly to stay away from me while I was working.

When it’s hot, Zip loves to sleep at the base of the barn door, where he can get some shade and also keep an eye on things. If anything anywhere moves, he’s out like a shot. He’s a hunter, for sure.

But Zip is a great company; he sat beside me for more than an hour while I worked in the heat. He never bothered me, but I reached over and scratched or stroked him now and then.

We are very companionable now. I am one of those people you read about who are supposed to stay indoors in very hot or humid weather. I try, but it doesn’t fit my lifestyle or work ethic.

This is a new and maturing Zip. He can sit still and gaze out at the world alongside me. I like his company. He always appears when I am out working. or taking pictures.

20 May

Don’t Forget Lemonade Bottles For The Pantry’s Children. $2.79 A Bottle

by Jon Katz

As I wrote earlier in the day, Cambridge Pantry Director Sarah Harrington’s food choice of the day is Amazon Fresh Lemonade from Concentrate, 64 Fl Oz, $2.79 per bottle.

The pantry customer’s children are aching for this, especially as the temperatures have already hit the mid-80s, which is unprecedented here.

If you can, and if you get a chance, please send a bottle or two to the pantry. It sounds like the cereal boxes are pouring in (pictures tomorrow). Thanks, thanks, and thanks.

We are making a difference.

20 May

People I Like: Bob’s Back (Again) In His Much Loved Hot Dog Stand

by Jon Katz

Bob is one of the genuine fixtures in my small town.

I like him very much and am happy to photograph him. He likes to be photographed, or at least, he could care less.

Bob, with his small business of selling hot dogs, is not just a fixture in the village but a living embodiment of its spirit. His presence, five days a week, at the same spot during Spring and Summer for decades, is a constant reminder of the beauty of community.

You might even spot his cart at a local championship football game at the high school, further cementing his role in our town’s life.

His stand is a gathering place for his many relatives (everywhere I go in town, I meet a child, cousin, or grandchild of Bob) and his friends, who love to sit around outdoor tables eating their hot dogs and talking. Every other person I meet is one of his grandchildren.

Today, a small army of family members had gathered to mark another of his annual returns to the same spot under a huge maple tree near the center of town. He usually comes on Memorial Day to begin his season.

I don’t know what he does for the rest of the year; I have yet to ask.

His business is smart for any town. He works alone, and all his equipment fits easily in the back of his truck. He buys the best hot dogs available, and at 2 p.m., he drives the whole business home. Talk about simplicity.

Bob is a warm, funny, and friendly man. He radiates small-town community, a chance to eat a hot dog with his four or five dressings, and his style of baking the rolls on a grill. He is a world-class bullshitter in the best sense of the world and draws other champion bullshitters to the stand. They never run out of things to say.

At first, his hot dogs seem like most hot dogs, but something about Bob’s makes them unique.

I don’t know what it is, but his hot dogs are delicious.

Bob had some medical issues this winter, but he looks great. He says growing older is much like having a used car—something is always broken. He always laughs when he talks about getting older.

I asked one of his children gathered around the stand how long Bob had been selling hot dogs there, and he laughed: “We think sometimes around the start of the Civil War,” he said.

I drive by the stand often, and when I pull in, Bob sees the car and starts cooking.  He knows I want two hot dogs: two for me and one for Maria with a special relish dressing. He usually has them ready before I get to the stand.

I’m not one of the trusted inner circle cronies – I’m not from here, but I always feel welcome and comfortable there. I’ve never heard anyone talk politics or argue there.  I love his hot dogs, and so does Maria. But he talks while he cooks, and if things are quiet, he sits down with the customers, who are often his buddies.

His grandkids are constantly popping up for lunch.

On days when we’re working hard and don’t feel like cooking, we jump in the car. Bob’s is on our road, just a few miles to the South. It’s pleasant there.

Bob is one of the things that makes small-town life in rural America unique. Hot dog vendors are all over New York City, but I have never met one like Bob.

When I come, I sit out in the shade, catching up with the old-timers who love him and come every day. I wonder what they are talking about. I love it.

20 May

Photo Gallery: Bedlam Farm On A Beautiful Morning. Transforming The Past

by Jon Katz

I finally realized that if I wanted to change the present, I had to change my past.

One is connected to the other.  At times, I misbehaved, was destructive and selfish, arrogant and withdrawn, frightened and traumatized. Changing my life was a big order, and I trembled when I thought of the scope of it. Who was I  to think I could do that?

The way I did it – I will never be completely done – was to touch the present deeply, all the way to my heart – to find love, to do good, to shed anger and fear, to light the creative spark, to understand the worst and better parts of me so I could decide before it was too late just who I wanted to be.

I learned from a gifted therapist that the wounds and traumas of the past are all still there and will always be there. In recognizing the harm I have done, I also recognized the damage done to me and gave it the respect – not guilt or grievance – that both deserved.

To do that, I had to know who I was. That was the heart part—facing the truth about myself. That was my turning point. When I knew who I was, I knew what I needed to change and moved towards being the person I wanted to be rather than the person others created for me.

I removed the drama and suffering from my story. There was only truth. There were no good guys and bad guys, no victims and monsters. I stepped back and saw it from a distance.

As I tried to be there for the wounds and injuries of people I love, I decided to be here for the wounds and injuries I had received without bitterness, revenge, or self-pity. I realized I couldn’t deal with one side of the issue without dealing with the other.

As I spoke to the child within me and to those I love,  I told myself, “I’ll be there for you.” I became determined not to do those things and make those mistakes again. So far, so good. I’m not perfect, but I’m getting closer to good. Transformation and change are possible for me.

I’m in a good place and working towards a better one.

 

In her joy, seeing Maria with her animals in the morning lifts the heart. It is a posture of love.

 

I couldn’t find Zip this morning. He was sleeping under the wheelbarrow,  one of his many thrones. He popped out as I walked by.

Zinnia is taking her morning swim. She loves to swim to her limbs, but she doesn’t like to bring them back.

Lulu says hello. Translated: give me a treat. I always do; I can’t resist her eyes and nose.

Succulent, window sill gallery.

The raised garden bed is now in operation. I just wanted to know more to come.

 

 

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