February 28, 2010 – Today was a surprise, a sunny day. Maria and I went to Glens Falls to take down her quilting exhibit, “Cut It Up.” We walked around Glens Falls. We came back and walked on the path. Lenore ate some meat from a dead deer. Crate for her tonight.

The sense of Spring is everywhere. I don’t know if the farm will sell or not, but I suspect that if it does, it will be in the Spring. If not, I will have another lovely year or two here.

I do think I am ready for something different. I think the positive side of my craziness has been the willingness to give rebirth to life – the Hero’s Journey – in ways that stimulate my creativity. I love the farm, and it is a wonderful place to work. But change is fuel for me, and the dogs and I have some more adventures in us. I think Maria feels the same way.

I had an awful and unexpected bout with fear in the middle of the night – the night terrors, the shrinks called them. I meditated, visualized, gritted my teeth. Read, went for walks, had tea. Walking with Maria and the dogs helped settle me, as it always does. Need to work hard, be strong.

This week, I hope to start the next round on my short story book. Then I have to start thinking about the sequel to Rose In A Storm. Or perhaps another children’s book. I want to write a book about dogs and their dreams.

Tonight, quiet time. More reading about China. Posting of photos to the blog. Appreciation for the good things in my life.